Perspective is an important thing. I always was a smart guy, worked hard, wanted to get ahead. At age 33 I was diagnosed with severe heart disease and went on some heavy-duty drugs. That gave me a little different perspective but it wasn't until I went into the hospital 2 years later for a routine diagnostic procedure and they almost killed me that it really came to me. I remember having a doctor on top of me on the bed doing CPR, another one announcing to the room that my BP was 40 over zero and a third trying to find a vein to give me an IV and having a hard time because there was no blood moving. I had that out-of-body experience you read about of watching the proceedings from the top of the wall looking down on it all and realizing that it was just too much trouble to try to breathe. The doc eventually hit paydirt with a vein and saved my life.
Then almost 3 years ago I had 12 hours of heart surgery and they sent me home after a week. I was in pretty rough shape at first but after a couple of weeks was able to do some minor things. About 6 weeks after the surgery I went into decline and they couldn't figure out why until they discovered I was bleeding internally into my chest and had a collapsed lung. In trying to fix that they made matters worse and damn if nearly the same thing happened again - I went into shock, Bp went to almost nothing, stopped breathing and again they were sticking all kids of holes in my arm trying to give me a transfusion. I ended up in hospital for 2 weeks with a chest tube and was discharged on New Years Eve with severe anemia from all the blood loss. In the course of that stay they wrecked the wires that held my sternum together after the initial surgery and I have been fighting an uphill battle ever since with some reduced lung capacity, a heart that is just OK and not great, and a flexible breastbone. But hey, it beats the alternative.
I look at the guys at work who are there late every night and come in on the weekends and just shake my head. Some day I hope they get perspective too.